Sunday Reset
The Sound of Silence
I'm noticing how much I appreciate silence, perhaps because it's so rare. Is it even possible to be in silence? In my quiet room I'm hearing the hum of the air purifier, the little noises my dog makes while sleeping, and the sound of the keyboard clicking. If I were to go into a different room, perhaps it would be silent - but then again, there is the constant ringing in my ear from tinnitus. Does that count?
In the spirit of Mindfulness of Sounds and Equanimity, my practice invites me to be with whatever sound is here, with a sense of curiosity. To notice the sounds as they come and go without clinging to my desire for silence and without pushing away the variety of sounds, many of which are out of my control. I can notice with curiosity my body, my emotions, and any thoughts as I open up to sounds. I have to admit, it's an interesting exploration.
A few days ago we had a warm, sunny day here in Connecticut, so I decided to relish for a few moments in the fresh air. I headed into my backyard, sat in a low Adirondack chair, and put my toes in what will soon be greener grass. Taking a big inhalation and exhalation, I felt a sense of ease sweep through my body. The sounds from the nearby robins were delightful. Ah - isn't this mindfulness practice nice, I thought, being present in the moment.
Within five minutes I heard engines running (yes, plural…). I noticed an immediate shift in my body, my attitude, my emotions, and my thoughts. I tried to open up with curiosity but I noticed the added presence of inconvenience and annoyance within me. I tried to relax back into my chair, but the distraction was real and with it came my curiosity. What was that noise? Where was it coming from? When will it stop? I marched my curiosity to the front yard where I saw my neighbors' lawn service and 5 men with leaf blowers, busy working. Mystery solved.
The next moment was still up to me. I could remain annoyed or head back inside, giving up on my peaceful moments in the yard. I could also call to mind all of my mindfulness skills and see what happens. Here's what transpired:
I remembered that sounds come and go.
I noted that this too shall pass.
I appreciated how hard these men were working.
I felt grateful that employment was available to them which helps them support themselves and care for their families.
I also appreciated that my neighbors were taking care of their property.
I reminded myself that this sound is a sure sign of spring and that sunnier, warmer days are ahead.
I thought that some inventive engineer should design a quieter way to handle lawn work (noting that one of my kids is a budding engineer ;)
Was I a glowing example of a person who practices mindfulness? I did my best, and it wasn't easy. I reminded myself that I'm also human and offered myself kindness. I was grateful to bring the attitudes and aspects with me throughout the experience, and will continue to practice the best I can. Afterall, it's a practice.
Of course I'm curious to hear from you. How does your practice support you on a daily basis? Send me an email.
Warmly,
Julia
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